Friday, August 21, 2009
Today is part 23 of a 30 day commitment. To read about how I am blogging to change my life please read here first.
Everywhere I look I see potential. It is a blessing and a curse. I have come to realize that I am not that creative. Inventing something from nothing is very hard for me. For all my talk about vision I have a hard time starting with an empty slate. What I do see clearly is potential. I can take almost any idea and expand upon it. I can forecast the potential for what an idea can become. I can look at a program and immediately see things that it should do in the future. I can talk to a person and see what he or she can become or achieve, sometimes before they even see it themselves.
In a sense, I live in the future. I have a hard time with the now. Now doesn't go fast enough for me. I have had a ton of people ask me if I ever relax. If I'm ever content. It is very hard to admit, but I'm not content very often.
That's not to say that I'm not happy. I'm extremely happy. People confuse the two. You can be extremely happy but not content with leaving things the way they are. I just feel like content is a cop out. Content means that everything is perfect and relaxed. I would give anything to be content. To not have to be tortured by the "what if?" I am pretty sure that I will chase that thought for the rest of my life. Even if I won the powerball I don't think that I would ever be content. My mind doesn't seem to work that way. Its what drives me to succeed and also what makes me feel like nothing is good enough.
It is tough to type that. Does this mean that I am doomed to a life of constant frustration? When people tell me how impressed they are with how well National Powersports has done my mind immediately focuses on what we haven't done yet. You see, there is so much potential!!!
Over the last 23 days I have forced myself to think about the potential for a book. One of the things that I think about a lot is the nature vs. nurture question. I think that anybody can have anything that they want. Other don't agree with me. They come up with scenarios that might limit somebodys potential. I hope that I can come up with an iron clad system that will allow anybody to improve their life and get what they want. Regardless of their situation. A book that can do that has huge potential.
Posted by Nathan Sanel at 8:03 PM