Anxious

I am anxious. The dictionary defines Anxious as:

"Full of mental distress or uneasiness because of fear of danger or misfortune; greatly worried; solicitous"

I'm sitting here with my laptop, again, answering emails and feeling like I'm doing the wrong thing. This is not what I should be doing. I should be building something new. I should be doing something great.

It's hard to explain when I get like this. There are many times when I feel a tug to do something great. Something spectacular. I know I'm capable of it. If you have read any of my previous posts then you know I believe that we can do ANYTHING. The problem is that I don't know what it is that I want to do. Is this normal? Do we all feel like this from time to time? I question if I am just being lazy. Lacking focus. But, this stupid weight on my chest won't go away. It is like a longing. Sometimes when I get this way I just say to myself, "start". Like Nike says, just do it. But if you don't know what you want to do you can't begin to start.

I have no idea why I'm sharing this with everybody. I think most of you know me enough to be considered a friend. I have been asked by many friends, "dude, do you ever relax? Aren't you ever happy with what you've done already?" Of course I am. But how does that have any bearing on what I still want to do? I don't see the connection. So I am sharing my thoughts with you because I had to do SOMETHING, so I decided to write in my blog.

The biggest problem I have is translating the yearning into a mental picture of what I want to do. Everybody that reads my blog knows about my desire to write a book. I'm not doing so well on that quest. I keep reverting to what I know and love. Business. When people say to me, "You must be so happy working with your passion, motorcycles" I have to tell them that as much as I love motorcycles, I really love the business side more. I could be get as excited selling cupcakes. My biggest thrill with National Powersports has been building it from nothing.


Right now I know a couple people that are having a hard time with their business'. I can see some very clear reasons why they are not doing well. I know that these problems are fixable, but I am not in the position to offer my opinions. It makes me wonder how many other people are in this position that are using the "poor economy" as their reason for not doing well. The reality is that business' do well and fail in all economies. Its just that when the business environment gets tougher the basics have to be covered to succeed or thrive. If the basics are not there it is easy to blame the environment.

I would absolutely love help these people. I'm dying to get them motivated to succeed. I'm dying to map it all out for them. I'm dying to get them remember the passion they had when they started. I am dying to get my hands on their financials. Not for any other reason than to look at the puzzle and piece together a solution. Maybe it's easy for me because I'm on the outside looking in, but the idea of helping people turn their fortune around really excites me. I seem to have an easier time improving an existing idea than coming up with an original one. What would be better than keeping somebody from loosing their livelihood? That's heavy duty stuff!!

I haven't figured out a way to start with this process. Whenever somebody positions themselves as a "business consultant" I usually see a blowhard. Maybe my apprehension for people in this position is a result of my giant ego, I'm not sure. Maybe I should start down this road. Maybe this would help me write my book. Maybe I just got a new mental picture.

Maybe I should write in my blog more often. Thanks!!